Elaine Paige 《Memory》
Midnight not a sound from the pavement
Has the moon lost her memory?
She is smiling alone
In the lamplight, the withered leaves collect at my feet
And the wind begins to moan
Memory, All alone in the moonlight
I can dream of the old days
I was beautiful then
I remember the time I knew what happiness was
Let the memory live again
Every streetlamp seems to beat
A fatalistic warning
Someone mutters and the street lamp gutters
And soon
It will be morning
Daylight
I must wait for the sunrise
I must think of a new life
And I mustn't give in.
When the dawn comes
Tonight will be a memory too
And a new day will begin
Burnt out ends of smoky days
The stale cold smell of morning
A streetlamp dies; another night is over
Another day is dawning...
Touch me!
It's so easy to leave me
All alone with the memory
Of my days in the sun...
If you touch me, you'll understand what happiness is
Look, a new day has begun.
突然兴起的换了音乐，主要是爱上了歌词。
Elaine Paige的Memory，Cat的主题曲，never understood why she always had a thing for opera。
Another day has passed together with another nightmare，连梦里也不被放过，就这么被侵蚀着生活，没有一句怨言。A year later，the history has repeat itself once again。怀抱着躯壳裹着被子颤抖着，不是因为寒冷，却是因为眼角的湿润。哭醒了，how pathetic does that sounds。
每次都会无意间生起了想念，想起了那个地方，和人。
想起了那通电话。她说：“奶奶心疼你，看着你叔叔婶婶和笑笑，过的那么开心快乐，而你。。。”后面的话再也没说出口。
她也是心疼的，心疼着他们。新年那段时间是真的吓坏了，硬撑着没倒下来，可现在却把持不住了。She can't stand it，can't stand the fact that their health is getting worse because of this。他们是对的，他是不孝。可她的承诺依然存在，也会牢记在心。还完了这笔债也就一身轻了。而任何关系也不会存在了。
身体是彻底坏了，虽然体制本来是不怎么好，可一直经得起折腾。可这次。。。
差点在洗澡的时候晕过去，是真的害怕了，原来离死亡是这么近。
吃东西食不下咽，拉肚子日渐严重。有时想想是真的对不起自己，该对自己好点了。
最近找工作找到脑袋大。辛苦舅舅跟舅妈了，无比guilty。再次说声感谢了。
昨天东奔西走看房子，去APPOINTMENT，做CALCULUS。果然数学生最难做。
一肚子的烦心事和不争气的身体，导致grade掉的比雨快。心里呐喊着要努力，却。。
为了换心情而把一头卷毛剪了。
今天是她的生日，特别的日子。18岁不是年年都过，虽不需任何成年礼，却是要受到隆重对待的。
She can't give you anything, but across the distance she has always been praying for you.
Happy Birthday
*注明：片子为昨天的晚饭，边做CALCULUS边吃SUSHI。那个手是GRACE的，某人很不配合，不让照脸。旁边的白白的纸全是做的题，字被PS给改的看不出来了。。。苦啊~
